Kindergarten

K started Kindergarten. A big decision that most were oppossed to. Is she too young, too tired, not ready. Am I setting her up for failure, will she struggle. I talked to a lot of moms about this. It consumed my summer. But we found a place with small class sizes, a daycare attached, A can go too. One more year to try it out. Repeat her if necessary, don't stress. She will do fine. I had a parent teacher interview all ready and they asked what her strenghts were. I described her as compassionate, imaginative. A great, caring sister. Crafty. Clumsy yet daring. It was hard to carry on my description of her though as I haven't figured her out quite yet. She still surprises me every day. Ever changing girl. She has taken to jumping off the highest level at the park. She is going to break her leg soon. I can't control her. She has no fear of me. I threaten spanking and really want to do it sometimes. I won't though because I know I will regret it. But the yelling and threats don't work and it amazes me, It amazes me how my attempts to instill fear in her are fruitless. I try hard to be cool and calm, but her defiance and impulse to do the opposite to what I ask is overwhelming. Is it because she is 4? Or is she desensitized to me craziness? She has two people that she makes with her fingers. Every time I ask what their names are, it changes. Luca, Lilcia, Moca and Mica, Taniy and Lisa. She thinks it is hysterical when I make my fingers act out a story and we often make finger stories up in the car. The more I make them get hurt the more she laughs. She also takes to a guy that lives in my head. Super weird and I am not crazy, but Otto is ever present. I can't explain it easily. She likes her alone time. When there are a bunch of family around, she often disapears off with one or two people or alone. I will find her playing on her own in someones room or outside. She will be wearing a white formal dress and skateboarding around the cresent. She has no need to be the centre of attention. She speaks for her brother. I ask him questions and she answers for him, pretending to be him. She says: A and I want to make jello. A and I want to have a bath with bubbles. A and me need a drink. I love it. Her eyes are brown. The right is one half a shade lighter. Her body is strong and flexible. She has a six pack and the cutest, round bum I have ever seen. I love her.