is this it?

We have had a change in routine. The kids are now in a daycare. It was a painful decision and I am still unsure how I feel about it. The first week was hell. Out the door ten minutes early. A longer drive. Crying, clingy babies. Listening to A scream as I run to the car. K doesn't want to go back. Weird stories that don't make sense to me. Did you sleep today. Yes Mama, can I stay up? (previous meltdown suggests otherwise). Are you lying? No, Mama. I ask the daycare staff and one says she slept 20 minutes, the other says "Kate had good sleep, over an hour!". WTF?I don't know who to believe. Is this it... letting them go and never knowing what they are really up to through out the day. I am guessing that this is it.