a strong heart.

Our best friends newborn baby had a heart attack last night. She was born with a heart issue; backwards, holes, leaky and weak. They knew that she was going to be born ill. I was suppossed to meet her today. But instead, she is on life support. We don't know what will happen or the prognosis or how our friends are coping. Sweet Baby G, blonde hair, big eyes and breathing deeply is holding us all together. Tonight our girl friends spoke, and wept and told eachother we loved one another. Three of them are also expecting this year. I played with my babies today, held them longer, hugged them tighter. I cried while they played together and kissed each other good night. This life is harder than I ever imagined. Three of my 75 year old mothers friends lost their husbands this year. To suicide, heart failure and cancer. Three woman left alone. My mother lost her mother at 6, father at 18, husband at 50 and brother at 65. How do I remember how meaningful moments are? Who do I pledge to that I promise to be grateful and patient and aware. How do I show my children that this life is the only chance we get to love fully and live whole heartedly. Everything is going by too fast and tragedy is stricking too close. It can happen to us. It will happen to us. Take this moment to remember and focus on the bigger picture- visualize your values and what you wish to represent. Learn from and educate others. Love. Share. Help. Connect. We are not in this alone.