Turning 3 tomorrow

My sweet K is turning three tomorrow. She asked for a bike and a green horse and nothing else "because I already have toys and books and clothes". Sigh.

So we bought her a green bike and an ice cream cake with a horse on it.

Tonight is also the night that we are giving her beloved PEPE away. I am having severe anxiety about this. She has shed some tears and I would let her have it forever but I realize its time and I have been talking about today for 6 months...

When you turn three, no more pepes!
K, let's read, Soothers aren't forever...
You are a big girl when you are three, only babies have pepes...

so on a Friday night, I made an envelope that says "Soother Fairy C/O Canada Post". She is supposed to put all her pepes in the envelope, put it in the mailbox tonight, sleep for the first time EVER without her pepe, wake up to her birthday, she gets her green bike and they Soother Fairy should have picked up her pepes from the mailbox and left a present for her.

I don't want to put her to bed tonight!! It's like I am sending her off to college. Seriously. How hard is this parenting going to be? We left her damn monkey toy in Clagary two weeks ago and the I panicked, nearly hyper ventilated when I realized it was left under the bed at our aunts house... How am I going to tell her? She is going to freak... instead my resilient sweet pea asked a few questions and after feeling reassured that monkey will get back to her shortly she was fine. Just fine.

So how is tonight going to unfold? I have to follow through with this decision. Right? Oh my lordy. Besides the fact that it gives her so much comfort, she is also immediately soothed back to sleep when it is replaced in her mouth AND she is quiet in the car when she gets tired and sucks it. I also have used it to bribe her to stay in her bed at night... How many times have I said over the last year "I'll take your pepe away if you don't stay in bed!". It's ALWAYS worked. What an awesome invention.

Please sleep tonight sweet child. I am sorry for the trauma it may cause you. I am doing it for your teeth. And it's time. You are a big girl now. 3 years old tomorrow. Wow. You can keep your blanket forever.

Happy Birthday my love.