I have implemented a bottle here and there over the last month so I can have some free time. I have been away from the kids three nights. End result? I couldn't get back to them fast enough, was unable to sleep in and had to tend to my poor swollen tatas in the morning. Not as much fun as one would hope.
Today A pushed me away, losing interest in my milk.
My boobs are sulking from the lack of attention and they are depressed. Hanging miserably. Lifeless.
They are not making the abundancy of milk as in the past few months. Am I being punished? I should drink more water and take fennel tea. I should stop giving him bottles. But it's faster and sort of easier and he likes them more than me. But I am not ready to give up.
All these years when I heard mothers say "He choose to stop breastfeeding himself,jsut sort of lost interest". I snickered and judged them as selfishm thinking "sure, you probably wanted a break". And here I am. The jokes on me.
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